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Nanami Chiaki (七海 千秋) ([personal profile] partyleader) wrote in [community profile] eluvio 2017-03-19 06:50 am (UTC)

cw: suicide

[She bows her head, let's her hair cover her eyes. Nanami doesn't trust her voice not to shake, but knows she has to get these words out anyway.]

I'm sorry, Komaeda-kun... I'm sorry if I'm saying too much. I... might not be the Nanami you know. And you might not exactly be the Komaeda-kun I know, but- you're like him, so much. You don't care about yourself enough. You pretend everything's fine when it isn't. You smile when it hurts, and maybe especially then. [She lifts her head, tears lingering on her lashes.] I'm not good at using words. But I can see things. I see you, Komaeda-kun.

I don't... know if you ever met Hinata-kun, but the Hinata-kun back home told me something the last time I saw him. Something no one else had ever told me before.

[She swallows hard. Her throat feels scratchy; she never talks this much.

But Nanami doesn't know if she's ever been upset like this before in her whole life.]


He told me... that I was good at more than just games. And even if it surprised me, it made me so happy. And one thing I thought was... "If Hinata-kun is right, I can be a good friend to him. I can be a good class rep to everyone. I can be there for all of the people that I love."

But, for some reason, I wasn't there for you when I should've been. [Her voice shakes again.] I wasn't there for you when it mattered most.

So please... Please, while we're stuck in this place... Komaeda-kun, please let me be there for you like I should've been.

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